I've been suffering from some (very white-collar) angst for several years now. I've alluded to it in a number of posts here. Basically, I'm not sure what I want and so I feel like I've been spinning my wheels for a while. Sometimes I content myself with thinking maybe this is just me, to be diffused and have my energy going in a million different directions and I need to accept my nature. Other times I feel destroyed by trying to keep so many balls in the air, not really giving any of them the true time and energy they deserve. That I am disappointing everyone, not to mention myself.
I had a brief conversation with Mrs. H and I feel like she really nailed my problem. She said she saw me as someone who needs to be artistically fulfilled and that since I don't get any of that at my job (and i spend so much of my time at work) that I am scrambling around like mad outside of work trying to find that fulfillment. (to the detriment of my family life) She also said I was selling myself short by limiting my job search by not including that need in it.
This is basically a rephrasing of where I think Lakeview Joe was trying to get me to go when I was working with him a little over the summer. Ultimately I became frustrated because I couldn't figure out what that thing is. The occupation that would give me that artistic fulfillment. So I "gave up" and decided to at least look for a position in a different company, hoping that a change would give me some new ideas.
I think if I am honest with myself I haven't been zooming ahead with the job search because my heart is not in it. Or rather, I don't feel like I am headed towards anything still. I am just closing my eyes and throwing a dart at the board.
Mrs. H suggested that it might be a good idea for me to hire a "life coach"/career counselor. Someone who could help me find that thing and then assist me in setting goals and sticking to them. Has anyone out there ever worked with a coach before? What was your experience? Bonus points if you can recommend someone in the Chicago area!